Truly Tough

This is tough. I'm making it and I think I'm doing a pretty good job of it, but I couldn't and wouldn't want to keep it up. Paul has been away since last Saturday and will be coming home on Monday. There is only so much of Mom to go around and the kids need more. I also need some down time and a chance to nap or sleep in. In the early morning hours Anneka is joining Halle and I and I am sleeping like a sardine. They're lovely, but I'm getting tired. Last night I dreamt that I had to climb a gentle hill and I just could no longer make my legs move one in front of another. They were just so damn heavy. It is just one of those things, we didn't have any choice but to get through. My mom who is always willing to help is away in Montreal, and my sister in Vancouver is 8 months pregnant, working full time, and caring for her 5 year old with her husband away.

I'm at work and just about to head home. I really should stay as there is so much I need to get on top of, but my kids need me too. Sithra is lovely and I'm glad she is with them and it would be nice to keep her as a constant in their young lives.

We've made it through the week. At least I can check out (sort of) from the classroom/office until Paul is back. I've been catching up on work email and tasks at about 10pm after the kids are asleep and I've cleaned up from the day - kitchen, laundry, general maintenance. Every second of every day I am performing a task. (Except for now, when I am giving myself a few minutes to check out from must-dos and spew from my mom-brain which is really becoming backwards brain as everything I am doing, saying or writing is coming out backwards. It is kind of funny but not when you divide 42 and it comes out 24 instead of 21 and you're writing it on the blackboard. Thank goodness my students are funny themselves...but I digress)

Following "Deceptively Delicious" have managed to recently sneak cauliflower (well not sneak as Anneka made them with me) into scrambled eggs and muffins, which she ate but I mostly ate so at least I got a good dose of Vitamin C. Just thought I'd throw that in.

Bought two couches and two living room chairs found on Craigslist in Squamish for 900 bucks. Practically new, really nice microsuede. Killer deal. Only need one couch but such a damn good deal, what the heck. These are the kind of decisions made when one lacks time to weigh pros and cons. Con: How the hell am I going to get them home? Guess we are now furnishing the unfinished downstairs suite as well as our unfinished upstairs suite we currently live in. Wow, we're a mess!