Life is a strange twisting tale. Just when you think you have the table beautifully set, the cutlery perfectly aligned for a multi-course meal, the wine glasses sparkling just waiting for the guests to arrive to share in a nourishing meal in which you all have made a contribution an unannounced guest can appear and without anyone noticing the subtle flip of a practiced wrist can snatch the table cloth out from under the whole display and 'poof' - it all disappears.
That is exactly what has happened in my world of work and my world of home and family. In a nutshell I will likely not be doing the job I love in the community I love with the people I respect this summer.
There is a romantic element to effectively being on one's own with two young children. I feel more than ever a sense of duty; of grave responsibility; of fierce maternalism. At all times, I must be the grown up. I must solve problems and until I am able to solve them, or make sense of them, I must continue to do what needs to be done for the girls - to smile and laugh and share in their innocence and belief that everything in the world is good and kind and that there will always be someone to take care of them.
In times of need or perceived need it is always the disadvantaged, the most marginalized that suffer the most. It is another small blow to education.
I have no idea what is going on but I hope you can get through ok. It is hard being on your own with two small kids, that I know from far too much experience this past winter, and other than a recent couple of weeks of having Brad here, the pattern is going to continue. Let me know if you need to come to North Van and play/hit Maplewood Farm/whatever. It always helps me to have other moms and kidlets around - I am a better, calmer, more patient parent and it's just easier to not sweat the small stuff when others are there. Take care brave mama and happy mother's day!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the invite! Never been to the farm but heard it's good. Also heard good things about the West Van pool. Our pool isn't the best - too cold!
ReplyDeleteThings looking better here - better half coming home early - today, and got a bit of my work back - the local stuff. Looking like a good balance actually.
Likewise if you're ever coming up this way look me up. I love it up here but also like the proximity to North/West Van.